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Revision as of 08:38, 19 February 2018
Sex: Female
Country: USA
Year Started: 2010
YouTube Account: possiblegod
childhood sweetheart december 10, 1998/17 years old she/her billings, montana
i don't explain a lot here, but i'll fix it later. please take this with a grain of salt:
'youtube poop' isn't much of the top hobby it used to be for me, but still an interest in doing. a person can only have so much steam, y'know? i've started doing this six years ago, and that's crazy. i'll give a simplified history lesson for you all.
the first YTP i saw, with the 'youtube poop' label at least, was a portion of the earthworm jim cartoon with the benny hill theme over it. it was from a girl who was more well-known for making a lot of average-at-best super mario fan art with ms paint, i remember that. my sister and i were interested, and so we delved deep into the scene just as viewers. although i didn't come across anything else other than spadinner (this was around 2008).
my parents grounded me from youtube in general for two years, after i sent a link of a waldfield video to one of my friends. i sneaked on the internet browser on my wii from time to time and watched on there, but was anxious to be caught, so i rarely did it. the summer of 2010, i somehow persuaded my parents to unground me, and made my channel under what then was my official name of "TheRaz0rEdge", taken from the dream theater song, "octavarium". i cracked sony vegas 7, and made my first video in august 2010. which was of spongebob, of course. i didn't know how to download videos at all then, so i recorded my sources in very low quality using camstudio for my first few videos. i then started being very dependent on tvtropes on source ideas, which didn't change until the summer of 2011 or so, and so a good portion of my sources were from the "nightmare fuel" page, and the "scare 'em straight" page, and a lot of others of that nature. for me it seems really obvious i lurked there.
i joined youchew on september, still being very naive about how to act and be presentable to the internet, but people still thought i acted mature than most 11-year-olds. i still dunno why.
in november 2010, i discovered the more alternative/erosion type of tennis, and was immediately intrigued. tennis was something i wanted to do, but was very nervous to do it. i didn't know tennis was much of a casual free-for-all thing, and thought it was pretty exclusive. i toughened up a bit, and volleyed one of ashcrementvii's serves, me being in the middle of a threeway with him and captain. the serve was one of the most amazing videos to me at that point, so it surprised me that no one else grabbed it. the rest is history . . . gaining friends, being more involved in tennis, quickly adapting into a more mature editing state, etc. i still find it weird to have left a big big big mark on how tennis is currently concepted and played. and i don't like tooting my own horn either.
oh, i took a kinda-hiatus starting on february 2014, being distracted from a love interest. i opened up vegas a lot still, but never produced anything that was really really good to publish. i became more popular on tumblr over the course of 2014 than i did in three years of making videos, and i came to a big realization of the purpose of my art. i decided to drop Therazoredge and adapt to Childhood Sweetheart on october 2014, because a dream theater reference isn't a justification for me. during the kinda-hiatus, i got a strong hold of what i wanted to accomplish and what i truly want to offer to the table. videos that are more personal to me, videos that aren't just made up of sources i download from the internet and edit heavily on. 'cause honestly, this whole thing can easily bore me now, and i wanna spice up what i'm able to make. i made a new account as another factor of me wanting to start fre$h, and published "missionary's positions", only using sources that were somehow clung to me in someway, the majority of them being iphone and hi8 recordings.
while the subject of my gender was something i talked about to others in the YTP community since 2013, i didn't officially come out as a transgender girl until june 2015. i released "funny moments" just a few weeks later, made in the same way as "missionary's positions", but in an even more personalized manner. the rest of 2015 was me going through life with heightened anxiety and gender dysphoria, trying to find acceptance and ways to create to make myself better, while working on a video on the side. working on the video didn't make me feel better.
i published "you have your life, and i have mine, and i hate that a lot" on the night of christmas eve, under the spell of a girl. i've made plenty of videos being in a lovestruck state, which is the main reason why i chose the name 'childhood sweetheart', but this girl was different in all the best ways. and still is! we're actually better friends now, but i still need to tell her how much she saved me.
i only want to make art that heals me, and YTP isn't that for me. i made a few secret tennis rounds in 2016, and making those truly made me realize what i was doing didn't come straight from the heart, especially tennis videos. there's something in the works. it's summer, and my mental health is actually at a very concerning point, but i know it'll be ok soon.
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